2020, An End In Sight

I think we can all agree that 2020 has been a flaming mess.  We started the year with most of the country on fire, and it was downhill from there. But 2020 an end in sight is near.  Have hope that it will be better next year!!

I remember New Year’s Eve being a wonderous night as I came in to 2020 sober.  Bouncing from house to house being surrounded by those I loved most. I spent midnight with my two best friends at a party.

Realising I have surrounded myself with people who  are truly a light source in this world.

Even without a relationship anywhere on the horizon I know I’ve met two soulmates in those two. Shoutout to Peter and Charley for being my missing pieces.

I remember thinking how maybe 2020 will be my year.

And how I’m going to get my life sorted and settle down.  It didn’t quite happen, as we all have at some point, I got played. But did have some incredible sex so that’s a plus I guess and got played again.

2020 an end in sight

2020 An End in Sight

Then, of course, we got hit with COVID-19. 

Most did I thought “Oh, we’ll look down for a few weeks and then we’ll be fine”.  It’s 8 months later and we’ve just gotten hit with another round of lockdowns.  I lost my job at the start of the pandemic, which is awesome

Jjust taken out a loan and was literally was starting to get on my feet again and 2020 absolutely destroyed me.

Found My Superpower

I started an Onlyfans, which hasn’t just been beneficial financially, I’ve found my power.  I’ve harnessed my sex appeal into something that’s beneficial to me.

It’s removed the need to be validated by men in the real world.  I was basically at a point where as long as I was getting some kind of attention from men, whether physical or otherwise.  Let’s be real, it’s mostly physical, men have not been good so far haha.

2020 an end in sight
Photo by cottonbro studio: couple social distancing

Now I don’t care for that.

Men need to be in it for more than sex, because there’s men paying good money for my nudes online and they validate me far more than a Tinder hookup ever could.

It’s reminded me the kind of person that I am, and that I’m more than just a warm body.  If a men wants my time they better be serious about more than sex.

It’s also gotten me more in touch with my own body

I know what I like and I know how to please myself better than I ever did before.  Because I have to do it quite a lot more often than I did before.

And if the men are paying and I have to do it, I may as well enjoy it!

I also started working for an adult store, which has been one of the best decisions of the year.  It is such a fulfilling job, spending the last 6 months being able to help people in such an intimate way.

Hearing the stories of peoples lives, their sex lives, and journey’s to discovering their kinks and fetishes.

Having people come back and get excited to give you feedback.

Our regulars coming back to tell us what’s been happening in their lives and how their sex toys are going. I’ve worked for quite a few companies that have been “customer focused” but not actually been.

But with this work it’s all about making people happy and comfortable and I love it.

I couldn’t ask for a better job.

What I’m saying is 2020 has been terrible

It’s been such a hard year for myself and so many others.  Having to be isolated, people being away from their partners, the immunocompromised, all those (like myself) who have lost their jobs.

It has well and truly sucked.

But I have a few things to be thankful for, and I think a lot of us will.  It’s been a journey for me and I think I have done the growing and achieving that I wanted to.

Maybe not exactly how I envisioned it or as smoothly as I thought it would be; but it has happened.

2020 an end in sight sex toys

2021 will be a much better year, for everyone

Because honestly, it can’t get much worse.

Even if you aren’t thankful for anything this year that’s completely fine.  2020 has officially handed out a “pass” on being thankful this year, and here’s to 2021 being a great big step up.

Be sure to go into the next year with your nearest and dearest (with a 1.5m socially distanced hug) and be grateful for those you still have around.

Get drunk and do what you need to do to forget 2020 and leave it in the past, as best as you can of course.


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